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[Oct. 31st, 2005|04:15 pm] |
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i haven't used this thingy in FOREVER!!!!! so i as always have nothing to say, but i've been working my ass off, and i miss EVERYONE!!!!! sorry i've lost touch, but i'm a full time worker now, and all i really have time to do is sleep, unless someone pulls me out of my house, and i walk around crabby all day.... |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|12:18 pm] |
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life's a bitch then you die... just thought u guys should know that.... |
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[May. 29th, 2005|11:29 pm] |
wow... i am soo sick of feeling like my friends dont need me anymore, or that they just dont have time for me... i miss bein able to be on the inside of the stories, and being the one that did the stupid things... but i guess shit happens... i just wish it could have happened to someone else....
My mom just told me that whena g uy gets fixed the top two inches of his penis gets cut off!!! |
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| some dudes poem... pretty good... i like it |
[May. 24th, 2005|10:59 pm] |
My wish often feels cast away,
Hurried away in a hushed silence
By those who know the least.
I am no vessel for hate;
No grudge do I carry with my being.
But sometimes I feel as if it is
A certain Baudrillardian reality,
A simulation of sorts, wrought
To contain what is true.
You know how I have always been the Anti,
Seperated from what mirror images
That goes on in other's minds,
But I sigh to think you are not the same.
Like one sedated under the harsh light,
Only incoherent mumbles greet my smiles.
Both eyes instead are fixated in a trance
On a practitioner with false credential.
Don't think that I've forgotten, but
Oftentimes I have wondered
Whether or not this is true; as
It seems too unreal to believe.
Rip free of the foul protector;
Time will toll its bell against a dun wall,
You will again be alive.
I swear to you,
The wounds still scab and scar
But it feels a bit more bearable
To live life, now.
It is not impossible. |
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| I NEED HELP!!!! |
[May. 24th, 2005|10:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my dad snoring!!!! | ] |
i am soo confused... i have no clue what to do after highschool... i know i am going into cosmotology... but as for my living arangements... i have 5 options...
1) Wisconsin, to live with Mrs. R...
2) Stay home...
3) Move into an apartment with tabby, jay, and karen...
4) Move into an apartment with steve, ryan, and jamie...
5) Go into the survice...
i don't want to go into the survice cuz i wont kill someone, and i dont want to fight in a war... i dont want to move to wisconsin cuz i dont want to leave everyone... i dont want to move into an apartment with steve, ryan, and jamie cuz i will kill myself or them... i dont want to move into an apartment with tabby, jay, and karen, cuz i will be losing my family... and i dont wanna stay home cuz i'll be losing almost all of my friends from eastpointe... right now, i have my options down to either an apartment with steve, jamie, and ryan... and apartment with tabby, jay, and karen... or staying home... but i am really scared that if i stay home i will be losing my friends, but if i move into an apartment with tabby and them i am losing my family... but if i move into an apartment with steve and them i can have both of them... but tabby and them will be mad that i am not living with them like planned, and my parents will be mad that i didnt stay home...and they are both the most important things to me... and once again i am here looking out for what will make them the happiest, and i dont even have time to figure out what will make me the happiest... and it is killing me inside... PLEASE... help me and give me some advice... i am soo confused... WHAT DO I DO???? this almost makes me consider wisconsin or the survice... but i dont want to do either of them... and i would just get an apartment by myself, but i dont have the money for that and i would not make it living by myself... :( |
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[May. 23rd, 2005|09:30 am] |
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LONG TIME NO UPDATE... so yeah shit sucks... i am sooo confused... my moms friend wants me to move to wisconsin, stay home, or go into the service... my mom wants me to stay home... tabby and evereyone wants me to move into an apartment with them, and steve, ryan, and jamie want me to get an apartment with them... i want to move in with tabby and everyone, but i can't until after my 18th b-day cuz my parents will keep my stuff, and they wont let me get my money from graduation... i am going to use that money for school so i need it REALLY bad... i know i can get financial aid, btu that money will help a WHOLE LOT!!!! i am soo confused... what do i do??? am i supposed to stay home and wait to get the money, or should i just say forget about it and move out, and try to get financial aid all on my own??? PLEASE HELP ME!!!! and i am soo confused about life ingeneral... i need to just sit down for like 5 months and think about everything... but on the upside i am actually getting my liscense soon, and already have a jimmy, that i wont even have to pay insurance for, and i dont have to buy it... which is TITS!!!!!!!! i'm super excited!!! but back to school i go... peace, i'll c u around like a mother fuckin donut!!!
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[May. 10th, 2005|01:10 pm] |
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Once again i'm at school doin nothing... i keep gettin yelled at for not updating so here i go... r u happy now??? well nothing new has happened except for if i dont straiten my arm out in the next 4 weeks it will be stuck like this unless i have surgery on it... also my parents are JERKS and wont let me invite some people to my graduation party, and they are keepin all the money my family gives me, and i can only spend it on school... what BULLSHIT!!!!!!! |
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| long time no updates!!!! |
[May. 9th, 2005|11:25 am] |
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| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | some song the kid next to me is listening to by linkin park. | ] |
hey guys, once again i have neglected to update my damn journal... go figure... but anyways... i am goin though physical therapy for my arm which sucks ass.... but i guess it is a good thing... but yeah i have prom and the down town hoe down this weekend... i only get to go to the hoe down on sunday this year... which sucks but its better than nothing... and i have senior skip day on friday, so i'm taking that day to go get my nails done... but yeah this week is packed, and so is next week... it sucks but shit happens when u party naked.... but i have to go back to doin my school shit now... peace, c u around like a mother fuckin donut!!!! |
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[May. 2nd, 2005|11:59 am] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | some gay music in the COC!!! lol... | ] |
yesterday was an extremely good day... at first it wasn't, but as the night came to an end i got to talk to a lot of people i haven't talked to in a while, got good news from my sister, and just had a good day!!! YIPPEE!!!! lol... i'm a dork... but yeah... i dont know what else to put in here... bye... |
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| BROKEN!!!!!!! |
[Apr. 18th, 2005|12:37 pm] |
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| | irritated | ] |
so yeah... on tuesday i decided to pretend like i can skateboard... j/p... i was learning how to skateboard, and most normal people would start out on a flat surface... well i decided to start out on a mini half pipe... i was doin good... i could go on the bottom of it by myself, and for someone as stupid as me, thats real good for my first day!!! well i decided to just stand there on the board and someone scared me, and i fell... i dislocated my elbow about 3 inches... all i did was sat there and told everyone i broke my arm... no one believed me, cuz i wasn't crying or anything... i was a trooper!!! but yeah, it hurts... if u wanna know more call me... u all know the number!!! |
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| updating |
[Apr. 12th, 2005|01:02 pm] |
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| | chipper | ] |
Once again... i haven't updated in a while, but shit happens.... i'm at school right now, sittin on my ass as always... i'm gonna fail... NOT!!!!!! n-e-ways... i'm bored Peace |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2005|06:58 pm] |
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| | excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | super freak | ] |
so yeah... me and steve are broken up, but hes still pissin me off like no other... but thats ok, cuz i am SUPER excited about this weekend... i get to see EVERYONE that means something to me.... my mom better not be mean, and she better let me go!!! if she dont we will be buckin and weavin, thats gangsta for i'mma kick her ass biotch!!! j/k!! but yeah... thats it |
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| my alcoholic test |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|06:11 pm] |
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Bourbon
Congratulations! You're 104 proof, with specific scores in beer (80) , wine (33), and liquor (69). |
| Screw all that namby-pamby chick stuff, you're going straight for the bottle and a shot glass! It'll take more than a few shots of Wild Turkey or 99 Bananas before you start seeing pink elephants. You know how to handle your alcohol, and yourself at parties. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 25% on proof |
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You scored higher than 93% on beer index |
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You scored higher than 81% on wine index |
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You scored higher than 88% on liquor index |
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| the break up |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|05:53 pm] |
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| | relieved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | boulevard of broken dreams- Green day!!! | ] |
well everyone will be happy... me and my boyfriend broke up... that fucked up thing is that about 10 minutes later, he texted one of my friends, and told her we broke up, and that he wanted her... but she turned him down... HAHAHAHA!!!! he's gay anyways... fuck him... he's a pussy... the funniest thing is that i was his first girlfriend ever and hes 17.... i dunno what i even saw in him... hes a dick... well i am single and lookin now... haha... wheres my next boyfriend victim?? will you be that person??? |
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| chillaxin |
[Mar. 16th, 2005|09:33 am] |
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| | aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 50 cent- candy shop | ] |
hey guys... whats crackalackin??? notta lotta ova here... i am very excited for this weekend though... i miss my tabby and cyle soo much... i can't wait to see them... they better still come... anyways... i am about to break up with my boyfriend... he always says stupid stuff, and i just got into another fight with him, and pushed him into a wall... he makes me soo mad and miserable... i dunno y i stay with him... i can't stand him... i need someone that will love me for me, and hold me, and make me feel good about myself... will you be that someone??? :(:( I'm all alone theres no one here beside me... :(:( i'm saddened!!! |
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| long time |
[Mar. 14th, 2005|03:29 pm] |
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| | chipper | ] |
I haven't used this thing in a long time... but yeah... a lot has happened... j/k my life is too boring!! but i did almost get into a fight on friday... this bitch slammed a door in my face, and i was gonna push it open but i knew i would go to jail if i got into the door... and i hate my family like always... and i can't wait to move out, and get back to eastpointe with all of my REAL friends... there are a few out here, like jamie, and stephanie, but not many... but i am happy with my boyfriend, even though we fight constantly... i hate him sometimes, but i still have fun with him when we aren't fighting... but anyways... i am bored and have nothing to write, so i'll talk to u later... peace home slices... |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2005|01:19 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
Yeah, i haven't updated in a long time... i haven't really felt like it... i have been fighting with my mother, and everyone else... but yeah... on Monday it will be one month with Steve... i am very happy with him, except for when he gets pissy with me... but he's a male... no offence guys... but anyways... i'm flippin pissed cuz my mom is bein gay and wont let me go to tabs... also because one of the friends told her they saw me smoking so now she watches me like a hawk!!! well i'm in school, and i'm about to get bitched at like always so i'm out like a fat kid in dodge ball.... PEACE SEE YOU ARE LIKE A MOTHER FUCKIN DONUT!!!! |
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| TONIGHT FUCKIN SUCKED ASS... |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|09:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
OH MY FUCKIN GOD... TONIGHT FUCKIN SUCKED ASS... I GOT INTO A BIG ARGUEMENT AT NIGHT SCHOOL WITH THREE GUYS, AND ALMOST HIT TWO OF THEM... THEN I CAME HOME, AND I LET MY DOGS OUT, AND THE GUY THAT LIVES 2 DOORS DOWN LET HIS DOG OUT, AND IT ATTACKED MY DOG... THEN THEY ALMOST GOT HIT BY A CAR, AND THE FUCKIN DOG CAME AFTER ME... I WENT INTO THE HOUSE, AND GRABBED MY DADS GUN, BUT THE DOG TOOK OFF TOO FAST... |
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